Horizons Magazine

More about Andrea

OCTOBER 2003
Emotional reactions cloud your intuitive ability; ceasing incessant chatter
to attune to Divine guidance; how I - as a clairvoyant - perceive the world
around me; digging yourself into a rut; every day is a new beginning.

Hello and welcome to the October 2003 issue of Horizons Magazine. Ah! Finally
a break in the Florida heat! Usually the heat of summer in central Florida is routinely
 broken by tropical storms brewing off the coast in early fall, but this has been the
most uneventful hurricane season since I moved up from Miami in 1983. Each year,
 it's taken less and less preparation to be ready for a hurricane, or maybe it's just that
 I over-prepared 20 years ago and just haven't used up my supplies yet! Maybe it's just that as I get older, I am less into the drama of everything around me. Maybe I've begun to trust that I've (finally!) learned to be mindful enough to stay prepared and disciplined myself to not be emotionally over-reactive.

I admit I went through my ditzy blonde phase of superficiality; of not paying much attention to what I was doing or who I was affecting; of being only concerned with me, Me ME! I just sailed through a bunch of years selfishly letting my family, my friends, my co-workers pick up the slack for what I wasn't being responsible for. At first I didn't know I was doing it. When it was pointed out to me I was being selfish, or causing more work for others, or distracting others from work, I continued to do it, although I started to pay more attention to who else I was affecting, who else was being impacted by what I did or didn't do. It was years later that I finally "got" it and became more self sufficient. Only then did I learn to be responsible for how I perceived life and how I reacted to it.

The less emotionally reactive I became to the outside world, the easier I attuned to the inner world. The more I was patient and played "the observer," the more clearly patterns and insights would begin to emerge from each situation. I noticed in my friends and others around me, that the ones who were always the most emotionally excitable, were the ones who were slow to perceive and understand the things going on around them. The more of a drama queen they tended to be, the less intuitive and insightful they were.

I have a few friends going through changes right now and it's always interesting how people choose to act and react. These are people who have read for years that we create our own reality by the thoughts we think and the words we speak, and who claim to believe that is true. Yet they will spend lotsa time contemplating worse case scenarios and replay them in their head until they're frantic and depressed. They then spend hours calling friends and family, dragging them into their hysteria, reopening old wounds from 20-30-40 years ago that they keep choosing to rehash over and over.

These same friends will ask for guidance and not hear a word of it. I sat with a good friend last month and made observations to her that she one by one said, "No, no, that's not what's happening, you've got it wrong," when I knew I did not have it wrong. But I also knew that there was no convincing her of anything she was not willing or ready to hear. When I see this is happening to a friend, the best thing I can do is to not attempt to counsel or guide them, but rather distract them into some fun activity that totally engages their attention. They don't understand that while they are in their emotional state, they not only don't hear outside guidance, they also don't have access to their own intuitive guidance. They don't realize that to hear the Divine inner voice, they must stop their incessant inner and outer chatter.

As a professional clairvoyant, I see everything around me not only with my outer vision, but also with my inner vision. I tend to think of the world around me as the visible manifestation of energy in motion, because as an energy worker that's how I perceive it. The concept of subtle energy is not a theoretical one for me. Everything and everyone I see with inner sight is composed of highly interactive energy. This means I'm paying less attention to what your words are, than I am to what your energy field is telling me, and how you're vibrating.

When I'm looking into your energy field, I'm not thinking "oh, she's yellow," or "oh, she's blue." It's my experience that colors change every moment with every thought, as often as your moods do. What I perceive is like a film clip within a layer of the aura that runs along the first few inches from your skin. Different locations show me a different "movie." Yours fears and concerns make for a more vivid film than do the areas of your life you're bored with. Kinda like the old black and white movies they've colorized - you're going along in black and white (the oppressed, boring parts of your life) and suddenly you're in color (your fears, fervent wishes, etc.)

The "speed" the film runs has to do with how efficiently you're managing the situation, emotionally, and also has to do with how you feel you are managing the situation. It's like a lot of overlays, and it took me many years to feel confident with it. So now, when someone sits across from me to tell their story, it's like being in a multiplex theatre. The words they speak give me the least information of all, although it does tell me their alibi for why they think it (fill in the blank) isn't their fault, and it tells me what part they want me to play in their movie?

So, when my friend tells me, "No, no, you're not right, what you say isn't happening," I don't need to make her admit it and have a conversation she isn't ready to have, especially with me. I don't need to do anything; she has to make her own choices and free herself in her own time.

I used to feel frustrated when I told someone something that would solve their dilemma and then watched them act as though they didn't know the solution. Boy, am I glad I let that go! Four years ago, Samantha came to me when she was in the midst of many life changes, divorce, income. She was new to metaphysics and I turned her on (I love that phrase!) to the basic concepts of how we attract things, people, events, into our life, and how it's possible to co-create using creative visualization. She was a quick study and within eight months, her life had gotten much smoother and more manageable. Her relationship had reconciled and she'd found the perfect part time job. We soon stopped our weekly sessions and I didn't see her for over a year,. When I did, her life had again become unmanageable and, when asked, she admitted she was no longer doing her creative visualization and, in fact, had forgotten all about it.

I was stunned. Here was someone who'd learned a really helpful new technique with the power to change her life forever, and she allowed herself to forget about it?

When we were together doing work on a weekly basis, she was able to keep herself motivated and focused on her goals,. Once that system was out of place, she reverted to her old way of doing things - not because they were the best choices but because she was used to doing it that way. Even though she'd found an easier way, she was so engraved in her old way of doing things that nothing else was an option but doing things the old way. She dug herself into a rut that she then made home and didn't want rescuing from. Sound like anyone you know? (Sound like everyone you know? * hehe *)

The good news is that every day is a new beginning. Every day we can choose again, we can choose to act differently with someone; we can choose to react differently to another. We get new chances over and over again to make more and more choices! I so love the idea of that - no matter how much of a brat and a bother you've been, you can make a new decision in the Now to change it all.

You can make a new decision right now to let go of the drama and idle chatter for a little while each day, and go within. Just close your eyes and follow your breath, maybe do the bone breathing meditation on page 17, and get familiar with the inner world that is you. Get familiar with the sounds in your head, the ringing, the buzzing and humming, and listen to the blood flow, listen to your breath, be aware of your tongue as you swallow. Feel your heart beating and your chest expanding as you fill your lungs. Become aware of your bones and breathe their length. Just doing a little of this a few times a day will help you begin to perceive your body in a dynamic new way, and also create a condtion that makes you more receptive to inner guidance.
And finally, remember: it's always okay in the end and if it's not, well, then it's not the end!

Enjoy our issue this month. Hari Om.